Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I never wanted to be that mom

I never wanted to the Mom on the Lifetime orginal movie. The mom that runs out of steam half-way through motherhood. I don't love my kids any less; of course. So why (WHY?) am I so tired of my life?

Is it the kids? Work? Marriage? Why does it hurt my heart just to get out of bed? I put my feet on floor and I want to weep.

Escape is a fantasy. I will never leave these children. My spirit feels as if it is dying, after a long illness. I have left remission and the end is near.

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