Raising teenagers is hard.
That is all.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Monday, October 30, 2006
Let's play Witch!
I don't say that disrespectfully. I would never deliberatley condensend or insult those who believe wicca to be holy and witch to be sacred.
I have been thinking, meditating, considering...the magickal life. I want more than atheism has given to me. Which is nothing. Just as "it" promises. Nothing. Your born. You are alone. Then you die. Nothing.
Although that may be the truth for some, I am finding out it isn't for me. Neither is the new age thing. No judgement here, just observation. New age=new books. Lots and lots of new books. I still have this emptiness that knaws at me like hunger.
Christian? Uh...no. Been there, done that, for like 25 years. I walked away. Done. Not for me.
This pagan, natural magick, or perhaps wiccan path calls and calls again. I have felt the interest in the craft many times. I love nature so much, I am humbled. I see magick everywhere.
And there is the "play" factor. Spells, rituals and cauldrons all hold delight for me, for my life. I would love to be a witch, settled into my home, crafting magick in my kitchen.
Kitchen Witch or Cottage Witch. I have also seen the term green witch and all feel very pleasant and warm. And wonderful. This is all new, and exciting and comfortable. I do not feel threatened as I did with Christianity. "Believe or else." That just didn't feel right to me. It wasn't right to me. I should say it wasn't right for me. Perhaps, for someone else, but not me.
So, this is where I am. The connection with Earth, with having a powerful feminine energy without meekness or frailty. No submissive wifey thing. Powerful Goddess energy. This could be what I have been searching for all along.
Blessed Be
I have been thinking, meditating, considering...the magickal life. I want more than atheism has given to me. Which is nothing. Just as "it" promises. Nothing. Your born. You are alone. Then you die. Nothing.
Although that may be the truth for some, I am finding out it isn't for me. Neither is the new age thing. No judgement here, just observation. New age=new books. Lots and lots of new books. I still have this emptiness that knaws at me like hunger.
Christian? Uh...no. Been there, done that, for like 25 years. I walked away. Done. Not for me.
This pagan, natural magick, or perhaps wiccan path calls and calls again. I have felt the interest in the craft many times. I love nature so much, I am humbled. I see magick everywhere.
And there is the "play" factor. Spells, rituals and cauldrons all hold delight for me, for my life. I would love to be a witch, settled into my home, crafting magick in my kitchen.
Kitchen Witch or Cottage Witch. I have also seen the term green witch and all feel very pleasant and warm. And wonderful. This is all new, and exciting and comfortable. I do not feel threatened as I did with Christianity. "Believe or else." That just didn't feel right to me. It wasn't right to me. I should say it wasn't right for me. Perhaps, for someone else, but not me.
So, this is where I am. The connection with Earth, with having a powerful feminine energy without meekness or frailty. No submissive wifey thing. Powerful Goddess energy. This could be what I have been searching for all along.
Blessed Be
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
A weekend of reading
I have been really meditating on the entire Wicca experience. I use the term Wicca for ease but honestly, it seems to be evolving into more of a nature magic. The seasons, the Earth, our connection, which has been part of me always. It is as if I am finally coming home. I love the “play” aspect. I want to find time this week to walk out into the woods and find supplies for creating my own besom (broom) which sounds so fun. Just to create and put my hands on something that is connected not only with the earth but our sisters hundreds and hundreds of years ago.
I picked up 2 more books at the library. One is called "The Magikal Life" and another is "Spiritual Gardening". I have this ravenous appetite for knowledge and just can't find enough to read. I do that. When I have a new interest (take vegetable gardening, for example) I will find every avenue at my reach and search out all the information I can. I pretty much "homeschool" myself and have unit studies; everything I do seems to stem from my interests.
It isn't like a "phase of the month" thing. I retain and adopt the best of what I learn. When I lost my weight and became active, I read every nutrition book (not diet books though, blech), bought Prevention and Muscle Fitness Hers magazines and made charts, list, etc... Four years later, those habits have more or less stuck with me, the knowledge of basic nutrition is still fresh and useful and I am still active and fit. I don't buy magazines any longer. Nor do I make the list or charts. My learning frenzy eventually simmered down to a confident knowing.
That is what I am expecting with my new studies concerning magick. I will read everything I can get my hands on, glean what works for me and toss the rest. Quietly, over time, my new-found knowledge will blend into my life.
At this time, Hedge Witch (also kitchen witch, cottage witch, nature witch, green witch) seems to resonate with who I already am- an elemental who is viscerally connected with Earth; that is who I have been all along. Does that make sense?
Now, just adding the history, choice rituals (rituals of my choice, not mandated) and as forementioned- play, is what I seek. I am such a child at heart. Playing and blending that intuitive play with my spirit just seems natural, peaceful, and for lack of a better term- right. It seems right for me.
I picked up 2 more books at the library. One is called "The Magikal Life" and another is "Spiritual Gardening". I have this ravenous appetite for knowledge and just can't find enough to read. I do that. When I have a new interest (take vegetable gardening, for example) I will find every avenue at my reach and search out all the information I can. I pretty much "homeschool" myself and have unit studies; everything I do seems to stem from my interests.
It isn't like a "phase of the month" thing. I retain and adopt the best of what I learn. When I lost my weight and became active, I read every nutrition book (not diet books though, blech), bought Prevention and Muscle Fitness Hers magazines and made charts, list, etc... Four years later, those habits have more or less stuck with me, the knowledge of basic nutrition is still fresh and useful and I am still active and fit. I don't buy magazines any longer. Nor do I make the list or charts. My learning frenzy eventually simmered down to a confident knowing.
That is what I am expecting with my new studies concerning magick. I will read everything I can get my hands on, glean what works for me and toss the rest. Quietly, over time, my new-found knowledge will blend into my life.
At this time, Hedge Witch (also kitchen witch, cottage witch, nature witch, green witch) seems to resonate with who I already am- an elemental who is viscerally connected with Earth; that is who I have been all along. Does that make sense?
Now, just adding the history, choice rituals (rituals of my choice, not mandated) and as forementioned- play, is what I seek. I am such a child at heart. Playing and blending that intuitive play with my spirit just seems natural, peaceful, and for lack of a better term- right. It seems right for me.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
So, here I am...
I have been on xanga for so long, I don't even know why I am here but anyhoo...
I have been playing with the idea of practicing wicca. I keep talking about it and reading about it and thinking about it... why?
Everyone over at xanga is sick of reading about it so now the bloggers can read my redundant rantings.
I don't know if it is the actual wicca (because I abore organized religion) or if it's my love for nature and ritual. If I do practice wicca, it will be solitary and not in a coven.
Vegan chili is waiting; so more rambling later...
Blessed Be
I have been playing with the idea of practicing wicca. I keep talking about it and reading about it and thinking about it... why?
Everyone over at xanga is sick of reading about it so now the bloggers can read my redundant rantings.
I don't know if it is the actual wicca (because I abore organized religion) or if it's my love for nature and ritual. If I do practice wicca, it will be solitary and not in a coven.
Vegan chili is waiting; so more rambling later...
Blessed Be
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